Leaving Roman by Becca Jameson

Author:Becca Jameson
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Becca Jameson Publishing

Chapter 16

Lucy

* * *

I’m restless. So I walk. It’s how I’ve started filling my days. I stroll around campus and sit on park benches. I’m certain Master Roman keeps close tabs on the exact location of my phone, and I haven’t been bold enough to leave it in the apartment. It’s always with me.

He hasn’t texted me since the brief text yesterday. I’m sure Claudia has told him to control himself. I’m equally certain he’s pacing his office every day and not sleeping.

It’s hard for me to avoid focusing on what Master Roman is probably doing while I should be focusing on what I’m going to do. My options. Not that I really have a lot of choices. I’m lost without him. My body aches from missing him. But I need to gather my thoughts and face him with my specific needs.

This time away from him is for the best. I know that. When I’m with him, I’m twelve. It’s too easy to slide into my role as his little and let him control everything. If I simply went home, that’s what would happen. I would cave and agree to just about anything right now.

That’s not what I want. At least that’s not all I want. I want both worlds. The one where Master Roman dictates my every move; and the one where I have a separate existence outside of our perfect private world.

It’s midafternoon, and I’ve been wandering around so deep in my thoughts that I’ve paid no attention to where I am. I lift my gaze to orient myself with the campus and find a bench to sit on. I’m so grateful that it’s not only summer but that the weather has been unseasonably fantastic for the past week. It keeps my spirits up and permits me to leave the apartment. If the last five days had been dreary and rainy, I think I would have slid into a depression.

I settle on a park bench and tip my head back, letting the sunshine dance across my face between the leaves of the enormous oak trees surrounding me. I wish I were the sort of person who could fully step out of my role as Master Roman’s little and ignore that side of myself for a while. A vacation. A vacation from myself. From my life.

I’m not, of course. I can’t quite bring myself to break most of his rules. Not without negotiating. It’s just not in me. I’ve been doing as I’ve been told for three years. I’m not sure I could break Master Roman’s rules even if he left me, or God forbid, died. I’d be lost.

“Lucy?”

I jerk my head forward to find a man standing a few feet away. I don’t know him. I’m certain I’ve never seen him before. And yet, he knows my name. I’m not sure how to respond. It seems unlikely that Master Roman would have someone following me or approach me. He knows that would scare me out of my mind and infuriate me at the same time.

Download

Copyright Disclaimer:
This site does not store any files on its server. We only index and link to content provided by other sites. Please contact the content providers to delete copyright contents if any and email us, we'll remove relevant links or contents immediately.